Well, not yet.
In seven minutes it will be. Am I a big loser for sitting on my basement floor, alone in my house on New Year's Eve writing this? Probably. But I don't care.
I did celebrate. With my friends in our own way. And it was great, we had an excellent time. Excellent.
And now I'm thinking about all of the different ways people celebrate the New Year, and why.
Most people celebrate of course by getting drunk. Their first thoughts of the New Year are fuzzy around the edges, radiating with alcohol induced warmth. The degree of fuzziness and warmth may vary of course, but they're there.
There's very often friends and family involved, I guess it's best to bring in the New Year with those you're closest to.
I know a few people who are just in it for that elusive New Year's kiss.
At work I marked the New Year by writing down all of the times in 2008 when things will expire. It's a super tedious job, but it gave me a lot of time to think about everything that's happened this year.
A year is 365 days, 52 weeks, 12 months and four seasons. On paper it doesn't seem like a long time. And while you're living it, it takes forever. But in retrospect, it flies by, and while it does, everything happens. This last year I graduated high school, moved away from my home, my friends and my family. I started school, broke off the longest relationship I've ever had, and got to know some of the most amazing people I will ever meet. Exactly one year ago today my life was completely different, and I think I'm okay with that now.
As for why people celebrate, well, that was easy. With the exception of having an excuse to party, I think the reason (at least, it seems to me) is pretty clear. We all want new beginnings. We want a chance to start over - to right all of the past year's wrongs and try our best to keep from screwing up this time. No one actually says this out loud, but they don't have to. It's all in the New Year's resolution. What better time is there to start doing something than the start of a brand new year.
Every year, I say I won't make resolutions, but I do. I'm terrible at keeping them - most people are - but I do it anyways. I always make about a billion of them, and they're usually pretty silly. Like this years.
This year, I resolve to:
Watch the sunrise more often
Talk less, listen more
Spend less time waiting for the future, and more time living in the moment
Not worry so much. (That'll happen.)
Work on the sarcasm (See above)
Find more enchanted places
Cultivate my imagination.
Write more, write lots, write everywhere.
Love people for who they really are.
And that's just the tip of the iceberg. This all took up about 6 or 7 pages of journal. I've got a whole bunch of them, and I'll try my hardest to keep every one, but I know somewhere along the line some of them will be forgotten.
In the time it's taken me to write this, the year has changed. And my first actions of 2008? Crying for no reason. I hope that's not indicative of how my year will go. It just felt like the thing to do.